Apparently, I made this prompt years ago. Idk when but it was left in my drafts untouched with nothing but the title. So I decided to pick this up and continue where I left off.
My thoughts back then is probably different from what I have in the present, but the fact that I still have something to write means this simple reminder will still endure even as time has passed.
I’m going through a lot of things right now. I am emotionally in pain, I am in my most down moment of my mid 20s that coping is no longer working. Ever since I got over my depression phase on my teen years, I was alwasy strong and detached. Everything may still bother me but nothing has ever made me go back to hurting myself.
Until this moment.
Sounds dramatic? It isn’t. That’s really how I feel even as I am typing this.
Being in my mid 20’s I now have the awareness of the wrong choices and decisions I made as an early 20s folk. No, I don’t regret it, but the what ifs linger from time to time.
I have to remind myself that I’m just a 16 year old in my 20s who’s navigating life alone. I am not perfect. I have lapses. I have my ups and downs. I have my mistakes. I have my achievements (no matter how big or small). And I have the rest of my life ahead of me.
While I didn’t do everything perfectly, I am sure I always tried my best to be the best version of myself. I don’t have to compare myself to anyone because I am the sole standard I want to beat.
I will keep upgrading, improving, and learning. I have all the time to be better.
So no matter what mistakes or challenge come my way, I will always put my 100% to overcome them.
I don’t have to beat myself up. The fact that I’m alive, I’m already doing great.
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