The high from my recent resignation has now subsided and I feel much more calm now. For days I have prioritized relaxing, resting, and reconnecting to my hobbies. In span of 3 weeks of not working, I have already noticed some changes on myself. Physically, while I am still not back to my normal weight, I feel like my face shows more glow now than before, I don’t look like someone who couldn’t get any sleep because I’m taking care of 5 kids – you know what I mean? I look and feel rested. When I say rested, it doesn’t mean I only lazy about without doing anything productive. Since I have a lot of time on my hands, I looked for things I can do around the house, took online courses, did drawings and trying to get back to reading.
I’m also slowly regaining my sense of emotion, this is such a big feat for me, because until now, I did not realize how much I lost my ability to feel things when I watch movies or series. No wonder I gravitate more in watching old series over and over and over again since 2022. Last week I started watching K-drama and western movies again and boy! do I feel like human again. I cried, laughed, got mad, sad, embarrassed, and etc. That felt so nice, I forgot how nice it is to evoke those emotions from movies or series, it’s like an emotional catharsis.
I say all that, but really I’m still struggling mentally, but that’s progress. I realized this might be a lifelong healing and I’m learning how to live with everything without spiraling.
Thank you again Elie (my work persona), if it’s not for your resignation, I wouldn’t have this time to rest.
Sharing my favorite art I created. 🙂
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