I am working in one of the biggest company in the world but I’m not gonna mention it here to remain confidentiality.
I wouldn’t say that I’m shy, I wouldn’t say that I’m friendly either. I guess I’m only friendly to people in selected moments. Like when I think they have something interesting or when I think they’re kind and approachable. I’m also pretty honest but most of the time I always feel wary.
I don’t know where this kind of behavior came from. I’m scared and always insecure. Sometimes I think, this may be because I didn’t have a good foundation as a kid. People always made me feel ashamed for being expressive. No one listened when I wanted to express myself. I used to be bubbly and friendly but I don’t know what happened to me. Maybe I do, but I’m just in denial of it.
I want to improve but where do I start? I want to help myself but how?
I desire to feel belonged, seen, and acknowledged.
I don’t want to be miserable anymore.
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